The Butterfly and The Cobwebs
The Butterfly and The Cobwebs
How are you feeling at the moment, no seriously, how are you really feeling? Me, the following quote that I read recently says it all, “that so many of us are feeling anxious, helpless, weary and trapped at the moment, not knowing what we can do to make a difference”, this resonated with me. I rarely watch the news, or by a newspaper. I’m not on any social media platforms and yet I ‘feel’ what’s going on. I’ve always been sensitive to energy. I remember viewing a house and sensing a great sadness in it. I discovered later that the owner had committed suicide, although he hadn’t taken his life in the house, the heavy, depressed energy filled his former home. I couldn’t finish the viewing as I found it overwhelming, and needed to leave, although at that point I didn’t understand why.
A dear friend who is very knowledgeable about astrology told me that all that’s happening, has been predicted. There has to be a complete collapse of the old systems and structures, before there will be a ‘New Dawn’ and the phoenix will rise from the ashes. She said I need to Trust in the process of life, and go with the flow!
I find this a challenge when there is so much suffering in the world on so many levels, and I feel overwhelmed with feelings of helpless. When I finally caught covid, I felt quite poorly and couldn’t concentrate on reading or doing meditation, and had no energy, to get out into nature. I felt isolated and low emotionally. Usually these practices, give me the nudge to keep going when the ‘going gets tough’, but I quite simply couldn’t do them.
One morning something told me to go out to the garden shed, pick up some tools and do some gentle gardening. As I approached, I saw movement at the shed window, and saw a butterfly flying into the glass, catching its wings on some cobwebs. I gently brushed the cobwebs away and then I very carefully caught the butterfly in a glass and released it. It was a beautiful moment and given how I felt, it was emotional and symbolic. I realised that I spin webs around myself which prevent me from flying, old belief systems, childhood messages that no longer serve me, the opinions of others, fear of failure……. All of these can still be powerful for me, especially when I feel vulnerable. I allow the fear and negativity of the sensationalist news, spin webs around me too, immobilising me.
I had to gently and lovingly brush away my cobwebs and find some things to do until I felt able to resume the normal practices. I read some short, inspirational stories, watched an uplifting afternoon movie, focussed on good news stories, watched the noisy starlings feed on the suet balls, and had some dog therapy from my neighbours ‘Cava- poo’. I have also gone back to an old practice of visualising myself surrounded by either a midnight blue cloak of protection or being inside a pink bubble. These practices have raised my energy levels and I feel more positive. It’s helping to keep out the overwhelming feelings of negativity that can surround us at the moment.
I know I’ll continue to spin webs that hold me back at times, but recognising this and knowing how to clear them away and protect myself, is so important.
What webs do you weave around yourself and what can you do to gently brush them away and allow yourself to take flight?
